I've been feeling pretty down on myself lately for not ever finishing school. I have tried to start back twice since I was 21 and I'm ashamed to admit I was easily discouraged. This is the one regret I have in my life.
Awhile back I wrote a post about wanting to become a Lactation Consultant. I still stand by this, being something I so firmly believe in. I recently learned they require you to have a nursing degree and I couldn't help but to feel discouraged again. I know the path to success is never easy or quick but my level of patience always conflicts with this fact of life. Working so many years in a dead end job that I always end up hating has played a role in this.
My mother used to tell me, "Why do you want to go back to school? You have a good job, you make good money. Just be happy you can pay your bills." Mind you, this was back in 2000, I was making $9 an hour as an administrative assistant. I will never forget how mad she was at me, resulting in weeks of her not speaking to me because I told her I wanted better than this, that I didn't want to be an admin for the rest of my life, and I certainly wasn't 'paying my bills' with ease.
The medical field has always had a certain pull for me, the satisfaction gained when helping someone and making a difference in their lives. However the amount of time needed to put into my education to get there has always put me off. I want to be done. NOW. I want to wake up and go to a job I love, that I can be proud of.
I am going to do it. I am biting the bullet and going back to school, starting with the summer term. One way or another I will earn my nursing degree and then work towards Lactation Consultant. I am turning my can'ts into cans and dreams into plans. It might take a few years but in the end I will say "I did it." I will make my kids proud of me and finally be a role model they deserve.
Awhile back I wrote a post about wanting to become a Lactation Consultant. I still stand by this, being something I so firmly believe in. I recently learned they require you to have a nursing degree and I couldn't help but to feel discouraged again. I know the path to success is never easy or quick but my level of patience always conflicts with this fact of life. Working so many years in a dead end job that I always end up hating has played a role in this.
My mother used to tell me, "Why do you want to go back to school? You have a good job, you make good money. Just be happy you can pay your bills." Mind you, this was back in 2000, I was making $9 an hour as an administrative assistant. I will never forget how mad she was at me, resulting in weeks of her not speaking to me because I told her I wanted better than this, that I didn't want to be an admin for the rest of my life, and I certainly wasn't 'paying my bills' with ease.
The medical field has always had a certain pull for me, the satisfaction gained when helping someone and making a difference in their lives. However the amount of time needed to put into my education to get there has always put me off. I want to be done. NOW. I want to wake up and go to a job I love, that I can be proud of.
I am going to do it. I am biting the bullet and going back to school, starting with the summer term. One way or another I will earn my nursing degree and then work towards Lactation Consultant. I am turning my can'ts into cans and dreams into plans. It might take a few years but in the end I will say "I did it." I will make my kids proud of me and finally be a role model they deserve.
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