Time

Where on earth does it go?  I feel like I spend most of my days, rushing around getting ready for work, spending 9-10 hours a day at the office, pick up the kids from daycare, make dinner, homework, baths and then bedtime.  In the meantime my kids' lives are speeding by before my eyes.  Parker is wrapping up the 1st grade, turning 7 (but going on 17) in July.  Camden is already 8 months old trying to figure out how to crawl.  Before I know it both boys will be off on their own going to college, getting married and living their own lives.  Some days (like today) I just miss them so much.  I hate that I have to work but it is the 'necessary evil', at least for now. 

I am so lucky and thankful I have a wonderful man to split the parenting responsibilities with, who assures me daily I'm a good mommy.  Sometimes I question it and it's so nice to be reassured from time to time.  We complement each other not only as two people in a relationship about to be husband and wife, but as parents as well.  We may not always see eye to eye on some things but what we have works, and I love him more and more every day.

My new goal - slow down.  Take time to 'smell the roses'.  Snuggles and stories, hugs and kisses.  And not just with the kids but with Mark, too; holding hands, stealing kisses, talking.  I already cherish these so much but I'm going to start being more selfish and stealing more of these moments.