Negative Nancy

I was told today I am a Negative Nancy.

Ouch.

That kind of hurt, this is not how I want to be known. I know with my frequent and unexplainable frustrations lately I haven't exactly been Suzy Sunshine, but to be known as and told that I'm negative more often than not...it shook me.

I spent several years in a relationship with someone who verbally beat me down. I never seemed to be smart enough, thin enough, social enough, make enough money. The relationship turned into a marriage that resulted in a divorce. I thank God daily for putting me in the loving and supportive relationship and soon-to-be marriage I am in now.

After I left him and going through some ups and downs, it really made me start to think about some things, like how I want to be known as, the type of person I want to be, how I want to live my life.

I want to be the best mommy, wife, friend I can be. I want to raise my children to be respectable adults. I want to be supportive of my husband and take care of him. I want to be the type of friend or family that every one in my life knows they can come to for anything, and know I will always be there for them.

I want to do things without complaint. I don't want to be known as a complainer, or as said earlier, a "Negative Nancy". I need to work on this.

I need to smile and laugh more and I want to make people smile and laugh. I want to have the ability to turn someones bad day into a good one.

I want to inspire people.

I want to have a beautiful soul.

I have some changes to make. Project Self-Improvement has officially begun.